Hiya!! welcome to my blog space! here is where i write all sorts about my life, interests, and probably a ton of oc stuff
on the right is where i have the longer (maybe more serious?) stuff, which im sure will be littered with weird oc ramblings because they are genuinely all i think about

well, enjoy my incoherent ramblings! hope they entertain ya!!

June 27th '25

whenever i've had a bday before i never felt different. like yk how people always ask 'hows it feel being [age]' and it feels no different. yea well for some reason i felt different this time. idk being 17 is weird, im wayy too close to legally being an adult. and its not like previous years where i felt that i didnt feel 16 or 15 or whatever, cos i do feel 17 weirdly. dunno man anyway. oh yea i can legally drive
...i can drive........

yesterday was cuute. i have a watch now that my mum got me YAYY thats cool. i did go out and skate but erm i got too cocky thinking i was gonna skate to town i am massively out of practice and fell like 3 times. also bad idea to rollerskate around northern british streets. its like the pavements have been bombed. also yes i scraped my leg and hand and got helped by some nice guy and no i didnt get into town. i went down like a few (long) streets and then got my shoes on and walked home. i do not regret it tho even if my ass hurts when i sit down. also my leg was bleeding man.
i'll tell you tho, falling and bleeding and interacting with this dude did something to me. i have been feeling very detached from everything i experience and especially from myself for a very very long time. but i didnt yesterday, after i fell and was hurt and had blood dripping down my leg. like i finally woke up or something. like i was wholly me. dunno man. its worn off a little now, but only a little. bit of pain keeps u lively i guess

oh yea also THE MY SWEET PIANO BUILD A BEAR CAME LOOK HOW PRETTY SHE IS AHAHSHAHSGFCUEDHF ISNT SHE CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!!1!!!!!1!11!11!!!

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June 25th '25

IM GON B TOO OLD FUCKKKKKKKKK

you'll never guess whose birthday it is tommorrow
im actually deaad lucky too cos i got the day off college tomoz (had it off today too and was meant to do eng lang coursework but brah i cba its boring okay ) i watched a few rollerskating (nd urban exploring) vids today that made me realise its been like over a year or something since i last went skating which is crazyyy. i checked my skates and luckily they still fit!
anyway cos its my birthday tomoz, i was thinking abt goin into town to get some super nice pistachio coffee and maybe go some thrift places since i have bday money. OMG SPEAKING OF BDAY MONEY I BOUGHT THE NEW MY SWEET PIANO BUILD A BEAR YESTERDAY WITH MY MONEY CAN U BELIEEEEEEVEEE IT
uhh anyway what was i saying? oh yea right and i might try and rollerskate into town cos that would b cool and fun. im gonna go out and skate tomoz anyway cos its been too long, but maybe just round my neighborhood if i dont wanna go crazy. thats boring tho

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June 16th '25

ok first ITS MY BDAY IN 10 DAYS YAYYYY

secondly, i have a facemask on rn and whoever says this shit is relaxing is wrong. its drippy it drips i put it on my face and its like way too close to my lips and also my eyes i have lost peripheral vision. i can hear my breathing cos the air hits against the bits of the mask. lowkeyyy dude i hate this. i never do face masks cos i just dont buy them but i got one as an early bday gift from my friend (who i sadly wont see on my bday cos shes going on holiday ) how do people like this
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...hm ok i take it back. finished the 20 mins and i am so relaxed right now. i feel like a newborn baby. i also look like one. all i had to do was channel Amaris The Red Rose turn off the light, put some classical music on, close my eyes, and be filled with flaming self loathing. the Rose way
genuinely though I am so calm right now. So relaxed...Goodnight gems and germs

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June 10th '25

woah hey guys how cool is this huh

sooo this is my new blog space!! got a little rolling blog action now cos i realised it was lowk effort to do the full page ones, which is why i wasnt doing stuff as often as i wanted to. so i have this now!! it all looks more coherent too with mostly pink and green hehe I'll be doing some long entries soon cos lemme tell you I. have ideas. they are actually stuck up on my wall infront of me on a little My Melody post-it note so beware. theres also some Thing i wrote that i put on my spacehey that i might as well put up on here too so

alright alright i'll tell ya how my day went because im sure you reallyyyy care huh
dude. i finally got some rose milk tea today after not havin it 4 ages and it was as good as always
i love Rose milk tea........ alright also i had to get Virgils Aeneid for class today right, and i was lucky that i had the mornin off cos my eng. language was cancelled (which btw i hate english language A-level if u ever do A-levels DONT PICK ENGLISH LANGUAGE (unless ur like into linguistics) ITS HELL) so i ran around town to TWO different waterstones to find it and it was NOWHERE to be seen. i searched far and wide through these two shops, looked all over the poetry sections and STILL couldnt find the translation i needed. so i had to give in, and buy one from the college
but its fine i didnt run around for nothing! i bought Virginia Woolf's Orlando!!!! see, i watched the movie adaptation with Tilda Swinton and its genuinely the best movie i have ever seen. top teir. defo my fav. its so gorjus gorgeous pls go watch it. anyway i thought it would b good to get the book as it just sat on the waterstones shelf with its pretty hardback edition just beckoning me.... so thats cool i have that now.
oh yea and happy pride month gays i mean guys

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