11.09.24     wooo i have officially started college! here's how its been so far

I started college on monday! well, i had my induction day last wednesday, and it went alright!
the campus is super nice, and its one of the best colleges around! while my form teacher is nice, the icebreaker thing she did was...bad. especially for trying to talk to ppl around you. which is a pretty important thing to be doing considering the fact that most people dont have very many friends as we have just started. anyway, what she decided to do was a spin wheel full of names...which already is horrid and weirdly nervewracking? err she also had a list of questions which were mixed and pretty random. like, there were a few like "whats ur fav movie" or "last song u listened to?" and some were just weird or lowkey boring idk.

i started lessons properly yesterday and hoo boy did i make a bad impression on my classics teacher. so, basically, i took a wrong bus yesterday, and ended up being half an hour late to my FIRST EVER lesson... (which was classical civilisation, a super fun course so far) and i dont think the teacher likes me very much. honestly, it lowkey seems like he's ignoring me sometimes ..which is fair, i would probably do the same :p
now, my art teacher is wonderfull and amazing and great. shes really nice and pretty chilled out, which is the usual for art teachers really. my english language teacher however, is a slightly different story. now, look, shes nice enough and this is all probably just me but, i don't like her so much. when she's teaching and talking by herself, she seems perfectly nice..mostly. but when she talks to students, she seems to have a rude sort of undertone: she uses vocabulary and words that are harsh and she says them in a harsh way. she's also kinda patronising. not in the way that she uses a kind of mild baby voice or anything, but she seems to assume most of the class dont know certain basic things and words and phrases. like she thought we didn't know what a hyperbole is. it's odd.
maybe she's just really detached from the kids she's teaching and all that. which to be fair actually isn't a good quality at all when you're a teacher is it. that's like one of the things that are pretty helpful and basic for a teacher to be up to date with really. hm.
in all honesty, college has been kicking me in the ass. I've not made a single friend and by god am i lonely. it's really taking me back- and not in a good way. to be fair to me though, it has only been two days. and at least i have some friends from high school, so i dont have to eat alone or anything. which is good. i hate eating alone a whole lot. the thing is, i find it real difficult to make friends, and always have. It's a me issue i think. im real bad at initiating conversation with people i'm not familiar with. If someone strikes up a conversation with me though, i could talk their ear off if they showed interest in what i had to say. And im not too bad at continueing a conversation either. i just find it difficult to start one with a stranger. of course, i can start conversations with my friends, i trust them.
whatever. i'll be fine, i'll make friends, i'll get through my classes, get nice grades. mostly because i have to.